I’m no longer in menopause it seems. My ovaries have re-booted after 18 months of medically induced shutdown. Joy. Although menopause symptoms are pretty shit, producing oestrogen is even shitter for me as my invasive lobular cancer was oestrogen receptor positive. That means that oestrogen lit up the cancer cells, made them grow. So I’m gonna get a rewind and get back on the Tamoxifen train for the next 12 months. Tamoxifen is a SERM (selective oestrogen receptor modulator) and blocks the receptors on the cancer cells so that they can’t ‘recept’ oestrogen. It comes with its own set of side effects (joint pain, fatigue etc.) and risks (endometrial cancer, DVT). But I’m not gonna go with the fear. Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. (Yoda, The Phantom Menace) . .